Lead me

Hi,

So, I don't really do the whole two-blog-posts-in-one-day thing all that often, but I just felt like I really needed to do a follow up post from my last one, which you can see here.

Looking back to even just a few hours ago, when I wrote it from what seemed like the pits of despair in my academic career, I feel like there's just something I should add. I had a freak out moment--we all have those sometimes. But I am much calmer now, even talked to my mom about it, and she doesn't hate me, my advisor doesn't think I am the scum of the earth, and everything is going to work out.
Wanna know why?
Because if God brings you to it, He is going to get you through it. As usual, all you have to do is trust, and He will guide.

Thinking about that made me think of this song, which I usually love for different reasons, but it is pretty applicable to anything.

"I look around and see my wonderful life, almost perfect from the outside.

 In picture frames I see my beautiful wife, always smiling,

 But on the inside I can hear her saying,

 'Lead me with strong hands. Stand up when I can't.

 Don't leave me hungry for love, chasing dreams. What about us?

 Show me you're willing to fight, that I'm still the love of your life.

 I know we call this our home but I still feel alone.'

 I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes.

 They're just children, from the outside.

 I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine.

 They're independent, but on the inside I can hear them saying,

 'Lead me with strong hands. Stand up when I can't.

 Don't leave me hungry for love, chasing dreams. What about us?

 Show me you're willing to fight, that I'm still the love of your life.

 I know we call this our home but I still feel alone.'

 So Father give me the strength to be everything I'm called to be.

 Oh, Father show me the way to lead them.

 Won't You lead me?

 To lead them with strong hands. To stand up when they can't.

 Don't wanna leave them hungry for love. Chasing things that I could give up.

 I'll show them I'm willing to fight and give them the best of my life

 So we can call this our home.

 Father, lead me, cause I can't do this alone."