Forget it.

I'm so glad to know that our friendship apparently didn't mean as much as I thought it did.
I mean, don't get me wrong, it's dead depressing, but at least now I know where you stand.
I don't know about you, but whenever I chose to get the word "Promise" permanently etched onto my body, that meant a lot to me. And I would've assumed it meant a lot to you as well, because why would you do it if it didn't mean anything at all?
And it's still fresh in my memory that less than a month ago, when I was already starting to feel slightly excluded and outnumbered, one of you promised me that you would never treat me like that because you know how it feels to be at the other end. Well, guess what you're doing now?You're just joining in and everything you all do (or don't do, really) makes me feel outnumbered, unwanted, friendless, and depressed.
I really don't know what happened. I can't read your minds, so if you don't tell me that there's a problem then I don't know what it is. But I would have thought that after living together for over a year now, at least two of you would know that I care about you and consider you some of my best friends, and that I would never intentionally do something to hurt you. I would think that you would know by now that I'm not that kind of person, and that I'm not the kind of person that throws temper tantrums on a regular basis, which should show you that I'm feeling really hurt. And yet either you can't see that or else you just don't care. Because I'd say it's pretty obvious how much this is hurting me and how confusing I find it. Yet you can sit in the same room, less than 5 feet away from me, and you can completely ignore my tears and pretend like I'm not even there.
So, here's to our friendship...
Except really it would probably make more sense to say here's to insincerity, dishonesty, selfishness, pain and hurt.
I know that this song isn't necessarily about friendship, but it still describes what I'm feeling pretty perfectly, because I do love you guys..I thought we had a more sincere friendship than this. But forget it. If you don't want it then I'm not going to force it on you. So, I guess if you decide you do still want to be friends or at least want to tell me why this is happening, then you know where to find me. But in the meantime, so long.